Dragon Fly

The Job Hunt

1. Cashier/Sales Person at Major Electronics Store (Interview Tomorrow)

2. Sell cheese balls and sausage with my cousin at the local mall over the holiday season

3. Build a website for a lady 3 hours away who wants to to drive all the way down to her.  Someone else who knows her says she can be a self centered bitch from time to time.  I think I’m going to cancel this one.

Hope Bear

I made a Teddy Bear for my ex-boss.  I thought maybe it would cheer him up.  I call it a hope bear.

A Good Day

The Good Part of My Day:

I went to a new coffee house in my local town, mainly because they have high speed internet and I don’t.  So I bought a soda and sat down for a bit to surf the Internet.  Unfortunitly the main person running the place had an accident in her family and had to run out leaving the store in change of another friend, someone who did not know how to run a cash register.  I could not watch someone struggle so I stepped up, it was the same register used at the last place I worked so I trained her how to use it.

The Bad Part of My Day:

I got home to a letter saying I now make too much money and as of 8/31/07 I will no longer have Medicaid health insurance.  You need to make under $750 (I believe) a month to be on it.  I make over that from June-August, but the rest of the year that I am in college, lucky if I even get half that.  Medicaid doesn’t seem to understand that so I have to call them tomorrow.

The Good Part of My Day:

I got a call back from one of the major electronics stores I applied at the other day.  I have an interview from Friday.

Thacher’s Park

I met a new friend on Sunday. He tried cheering me up from the work incident on Saturday. We went up to Thacher’s Park. It’s on the top of a mountain with an overlook cliff. Here’s a photo from the top:

We then went out to lunch at a local dinner where they just happened to stick us in front of the rotating dessert display.

Help!

Sometimes it seems like no one understands, even more, no one wants to.

Through life we are always told we can always ask for help. But what if there is no one to ask, or the people you ask have no interest in helping. Sometimes they don’t help because they don’t know what is wrong even though I tell them as clear as day.

I made an appointment with the local Mental Health counselor.

Munchlet’s First Birthday

This Is A Call – Thousand Foot Krutch

She fooled all of her friends into thinking she’s so strong
But she still sleeps with the light on
And she acts like it’s all right on, as she smiles again
And her mother lies there sick with cancer
And her friends don’t understand her
She’s a question without answers
Who feels like falling apart.
She knows, she’s so much more than worthless
She needs to find a purpose,
She wonders what she did to deserve this

CHORUS
She’s calling out to you
This is a call, this is a call out
Cause everytime I fall down, I reach out to you
And I’m losing all control now
And my hazard signs are all out
I’m asking you to show me what this life is all about

And he tells everyone a story,
Cause he thinks his life is boring
And he fights so you won’t ignore him,
Cause that’s his biggest fear
And he cries, but you’ll rarely see him do it
And he loves but he’s scared to use it
So he hides behind the music
Cause he likes it that way
And he knows, he’s so much more than worthless
He needs to find the surface
Cause he’s starting to get nervous

CHORUS

Have you ever felt this way before
Cause I don’t wanna hide here anymore
Take me to a place where nothing’s wrong
And thanks for coming, shut the door
And they say some one out there sees us,
Well if you’re real, then save me Jesus
Cause I’ve been this way for far too long
I wasn’t meant to feel alone

CHORUS

Show me what this life is all about
Show me what this life is all about

A Horrible Weekend

I was going to bring my mum on a little vacation this past weekend. Unfortunately at work we are short one person. My other female co-worker has been there a couple days longer than me but she has problems getting to work. She never shows up on time, the earliest I think she has got there is one hour late. Most days its 3, 4 hours or she even doesn’t show up at all. The owner lets her get away with it because she has some sort of mental problem. She can not be trusted to open the store in the morning because she never shows up. Our other employee had plans to go to a concert, so I was the only one left to work. Meaning I had to cancel the plans with my mum and disappoint her.

I went in Saturday morning upset. I was already upset over something that happened earlier that morning. I even told my boss I didn’t feel good and I didn’t want to be at the counter. No one listened to me like normal. Someone said something to me and I got angry and flipped out.

They asked me if I wanted to finish out the day, I decided not to and went home. The next morning I was told not to come in.

I am getting severns pay of 20 25 hours a week until August 15th. Which is a measly $150 $183 after taxes. Barely enough. So I am out to look for another job.

I left my other job the other day because this one promised me full-time.

I feel betrayed; I have lost trust in the company. Usually I say don’t put a lot into a company because you wont see it back. Except in this case, but I was wrong.
I just wanted to make everyone happy.

I am sick of this topic.

Fourth of July